Water From the Moon by Celine Dion

I've reached high up in the sky
Tryin' to steal the stars
Oh to win your heart
But even that's not enough
And I've searched every book I know
Just to find the words
Oh to touch your world and get some love out of you
I've already given all I can give
And I don't know what's left to try
And I try and I try
What do I gotta do

Love,

Sunshine

When Sunshine Met Broga

Can I say it again? Life is so unpredictable. I have never thought that I will have a chance to climb up to a hill this year. In fact, hiking wasn't something that I will think of even if I was dying for a getaway. This explains why my parents were a bit suspicious and dubious when I said I wanted to go for a hiking session out of a sudden.

So, this hiking spot which is located on the border of Negeri Sembilan and Selangor is named Broga. This place is getting more and more famous in the recent years (there are still many people in our country who loves adventuring the nature okay). I reached the foot of the hill at 6.45 am. Yes, I know I am hell early!! I left home at 5.30 am just for the sake of reaching Broga earlier. My friend and I were very eager to reach the peak and therefore, we didn't take much time on resting in between. We managed to reached the first peak by 7.15 am. Yes, I know I am hell fast!! Lol. By that time, I already could feel the strong contractions in my calf muscles. I must have gone through a tough journey, that's what I thought. Haha!

I spent an hour and a half up there. You must be wondering what the hell can you do at the peak with only grasses and stones. Oh man! You will be so stunned if you see what I saw and hear what I heard. Once my right foot stepped on the flat surface on the peak, I could feel a cool spring breeze caressing my skins. Close your eyes! That's what my brain told me. Damn! It's not just about the sense of touch. Once I closed my eyes, I could hear the whistle of the wind, which sounded nearly like a haunting melody. When it was about 7.45 am, the morning was aflame with the glorious sunrise. The sun spread its ray through the clouds, creating an overwhelming vista. Surrounding the sun was the sky which always had these little fluffy clouds in them. I lied on my back on one of the big rocks, admiring the powerful force of nature. At that moment, I have totally forgotten about my sleepless night, my tiresome, the slippery slope, and what else.. Ughh! There's just nothing that could bother me from watching the beautiful sky. ♥

One of the important things that everyone should do if they go to anywhere with beautiful scenery is to take photos! If you ignore this, you are so going to regret! Here are part of the photos that I managed to shot up there.

Aww.. He is such a loner.

Sunshine, sunshine! =D

This is taken from a temple which is located nearby the hill. (You have no chances to see any staircase in the hill)

In conclusion, I had a very satisfying trip today and I am gonna dream about the magnificent blue sky tonight. =P

Love,

Sunshine

Wen Kang's birthday

Life, unpredictable. You can't ask the fortune teller to tell you who will be your next best friend. You can only know them under many kind of unexpected conditions, and sometimes you will feel surprised that that person that you know coincidentally could turn out to be your close friend. This is what I feel, not sometimes, but often. So today, I have Wen Kang as the watak utama of this blog post. Lol. I couldn't quite remember how I knew him. The oldest memory I had about him was that he was being screwed up for nothing. After that, I don't know how we started to chat and became closer as time passed by. =)

And yeah! It's his birthday today. I went up to Sunway to celebrate with him. It was a very very very small celebration. I cooked him fried rice and made him a pencil case. First pencil case made for boys. Teehee.

Yummy fried rice!

See. He was so happy!

Pencil case as a mask? =A=

Wuhoo.. I spot a fatty on the bulletin board. (The one on the right side)

Big enough as a birthday cake?

I haven't seen people making wish with fork on his hand. ==

Already can't wait to eat the candle huh?

Yeah.... Makan candle! Sedap tak? Haha

Foamy cappuccino with brown sugar and chocolate powder on its top. They look beautiful, in my eyes at least. =)

Love,

Sunshine

Disguise by Lene Marlin

Yes, I know, I know. I should be sleeping by 1. But, tonight, I have to break the promise. And I shall forgive myself for breaking it because I really really had to dedicate this song to a dear friend of mine, Johnson. This is for you. It's very meaningful to me and I hope you feel the same way like I do too. ♥

♫Have you ever felt some kind of emptiness inside
You will never measure up, to those people you
Must be strong, can't show them that you're weak
Have you ever told someone something
That's far from the truth
Let them know that you're okay
Just to make them stop
All the wondering, and questions they may have

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Have you ever seen your face,
In a mirror there's a smile
But inside you're just a mess,
You feel far from good
Need to hide, 'cos they'd never understand
Have you ever had this wish, of being
Somewhere else
To let go of your disguise, all your worries too
And from that moment, then you see things clear

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Are you waiting for the day
When your pain will disappear
When you know that it's not true
What they say about you
You could not care less about the things
Surrounding you
Ignoring all the voices from the walls

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come
I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Still we don't know what's yet to come
Still we don't know what's yet to come ♫

Promise me you will be alright, will you?

Love,

Sunshine

Perfect Sunday

I woke up in the morning, like any other morning, received an MMS from my friend. It was an MMS with a photo taken from a hiking spot in Selangor (it will take me forever to remember what the place is called) and also a short and sweet message from him. I have to say I love being called Sunshine. The name cheers me up a lot, and I hope it does cheer other people up as well. Then, I had a great breakfast with my dad and my sisters. It was more than awesome to spend time with both my sisters since it had been such a long time since I last met my second sister. After the breakfast, we went to Tesco to get veges (I had been the chef in my house for 3 weeks already. Thank God the kitchen is still not burned down, yet. Lol!). When I was heading to the car park after doing the groceries, I received a call from a friend of mine, telling me that I appeared in the newspaper. I was like, OH MY GOD! My dad drove me to get a copy of The Star newspaper. I quickly flipped to the Education Section and smiled broadly when I saw myself in the press. Okay. To be honest, I was smiling because they actually cropped out my fat arm, leaving my looking good face(perasan) and the shoe I have painted in the photo. Muahahahah!! Okay. After thanking the person who have cropped out the flaws, then only I started reading the content. Er.. That was like the essence of all the craps that I have said during the interview with the copywriter. So, the copywriter did do a good job in summarizing things up. But, I don't know who to blame after my misspelled name!! Oh my gosh! (Of all the possibilities of typo errors, the J in "Jian" is replaced with L, which makes my name turned into Lee Joe Lian) Okay! Enough with the Ah Lian thingy. Pfth! Except for the misspelled name, the whole article looks alright. And, I am glad that many long lost friends noticed me in the newspaper and congratulations SMS and facebook message kept draining it. Wow! I have to say I am really surprised that I am noticed. (I thought I was nobody before this) Thanks to all those who have congratulated me, if any of you do read my blog. Haha!

Well, my day was even perfecter when I got to met up with my ..... "boyfriend"? Haha! Yeah right. Boyfriend! My dear "boyfriend" since secondary school. We met up and had a great talk in Starbucks (again). The best part of the "date" was the movie. We went to watch Date Night. The great thing about the movie was....

1. The cinema was not packed. It actually makes me feel very comfortable to see empty spaces in the box.

2. The storyline of the movie was totally out of my expectation. For the first 20 minutes, I even doubted whether it is seriously a comedy or just another boring comedy. But then, the whole thing turned out to be something that can make me roll the the floor laughing out loud. Oh man! I did embarrass myself for laughing so loud. Was I the only one who get the joke or was I seriously over-reacting over a small joke? Hrm.. I don't know about that. =S

Alright. So this movie deserves the rating of 8.5/10 even though it has nothing to do with high tech stuff. I appreciate the effort that the scriptwriter(s) had put in to make the screenplay so hilarious. =D. So, it was a date with my "boyfriend" watching Date Night. How awesome was that? Haha!

My "boyfriend" doesn't like taking photographs. He is so shy... for nothing. =.=ll But hey, I managed to get his phone into the photo. Lol!

NZN for my dinner? Uhuhu..

I just need a proof, proving that I did watch the movie! Lol.

Yeah, I have got nothing else better to do. Haha!

Tonight was great too, albeit the fact that Miss Sunshine is really really exhausted after the laughter (yes, the laughter consumed almost all my energy I had until I felt my lungs are struggling hard to get sufficient oxygen for me to survive the night). It was a day of wonderful sisters, stunning movie, cool "boyfriend" (Yes, he said he was cool because I was complaining that I was hot. I actually meant I was feeling hot that time. Lol!), sweet friends, and also awesome music that I got to hear at night. ♥

Love,

Sunshine

Wonder photos

I damn likey this picture. ♥

Button madness!!!!!!!

My very first try on making patterns by photo. And the result was rather satisfying that what I have ever expected. Like this too. ^^

Love,

Sunshine

Full Moon by Cheer

Breathless.

Love,

Sunshine

Unusually surprised

Isolation mode had been turned on for a few days. In between this time, I somehow realized how the small occurrences had made a big change in my life. By giving a try, I earned victory. By making a firm decision, I regained my freedom. By being Miss Sunshine, I found gaiety in myself. By knowing someone out of the blue, I got myself into ...... I don't know. I still don't know if it's something that I should be glad about. Everything was not under expectation. Frankly speaking, life hasn't gotten into such surprising state, until recently. I even started to wonder if it's I being so over-reactive or the occurrences are seriously way too surprising.

I am also amazed by how sensitive I can be yesterday. I actually cried when I watch Cheer's concert DVD. Oh damn! I thought I was so silly for being such a cry baby. But no. A friend of mine, too, cried when he watched this concert DVD. I guess it's just the way we love Cheer so much and the way Cheer can stir our emotions, like only she can.

♥Way too overwhelming.

Love,

Sunshine

To be honest?

"I hate that, I really do, when people use honesty as a cover for cruelty. You take a moral word like honest, stick it next to something mean, and you can almost make an insult sound righteous. And if we're sensitive, we believe those insults. We forget that just because something is honest it is not necessarily the truth."

-Deb Caletti

Nothing will remain the same

Each time the clock ticks and tocks, human is changing, the world is changing, and the story of every single living thing is changing. Nothing will be just like what it was yesterday. I am so tired of people who keep talking about yesterdays. Not that yesterdays should be forgotten, but, damn! Can't we just move on and let nature takes its course?

I am so sicked of you already. I had enough of your sms, enough of your e-mail, enough of your action without thinking what the consequences are, enough of your disturbance to my friends, enough of all the things you have done and are trying to do! After all the things you have done, what are you actually expecting? You are driving me insane! It's not about hatred. Really, it isn't! Who am I to hate you? I have already told you, I am feared of you! Can't you see what have you already done? You are terrifying me. Not just me, but my other friends too. Have you really thought before you do something? Or all you care is just how you feel? You think consistently saying sorry will do any good? Do you even mean it when you apologize? The day before you were apologizing for disturbing people, and the day after you were disturbing someone else. And what I mean about disturb is that... you have been asking the same questions, to me, to my friends, and who else?? I don't know how many times you want to ask the same questions again and again and again. The answer is already given. The answer is there. You saw it. I bet you do! But, you ignored it and continued asking other people about the same old thing. Can't you just stop bugging me or anyone around me about those questions anymore? And, you still don't understand about time and space. You have said, repeatedly said, that you will give me time. But, did you really give me time? Ask yourself, have you really stop appearing in my life for at least a week? Every few days, I will receive something from you, or news from other people about you. EVERY FEW DAYS!! Dang! You think you are the only one suffering? I am also suffering! And I had enough! I am already tired of the things you are doing. I don't understand you, and I don't want to understand too. I have already said whatever I can to make things crystal clear. If you still wish to remain like what you are now, I am speechless.

Sometimes When We Touch by Olivia

Love,

Sunshine

Things eventually turned better

Like expected, misery will eventually leave me. Yeah, it was great to go out to get some fresh air when I was in such a darn mood. At least, I managed to get pessimism out of my brain for a moment. Somehow, when I am all alone again, I can't help but to think of the difference. Yeah, how different human can be. We are all of the same species, but none of us are alike! And the thing that upset me most is always when I thought that that person is somehow one of my kind, he or she just isn't. It wasn't just some things that happened recently. This circumstance had been repeatedly happening in my life. And, the same kind of misery will take place after the realization. And, like expected again, I will then realize the fact that... some things are just impossible, and let everything move on like the way it should.

There are just way too many impossibilities in this stupid stereotypical realistic world. And, if you keep holding it, so tightly that you yourself hardly could breathe, things will not get any better. Instead, things will worsen.

Let me release the despondency in me and embrace the gaiety in my life now. =D

Love,

Sunshine

Love Me by Yiruma

Love,

Sunshine

Again

Tears welled up in my eyes. Was it because of the book, or was there some other reasons for that? I don't know. All I knew was I pushed myself so hard to fall asleep. I wanted to stop thinking. I wanted to get all these sucky things out of my mind. For a moment, I felt like getting my brain out of my head, just to make me stop thinking. Sounds stupid, but,.. yeah. Seriously, I haven't been in the state of emotional turmoil for quite some time already. Last night was such a devastating night. This feeling keep haunting me until this morning. I looked into the mirror as I brushed my teeth and realized that I look darn awful. Eye bags were big, as if they are filled up with waters in them. My lips were pale white. I ignored the figure in the mirror and continuing my wash up with my eyes closed.

Will things get better today, I wondered. I can't stay too long in this depressing mode. I seriously hate seeing myself like this! Ughhh!!!

Love,

Sunshine

One of the worst nights, again.

Once again, I struggled to write about that friend. In fact, I struggled even more tonight.

Everything about you is like a dream. And I am just too afraid to think of the day I will have to wake up from this dream. Oh damn. Why does this fear even exist? I didn't want to think of that small incident that took place, for even then I knew what it portended. *sigh*

Love,

Sunshine

One of the worst nights

I have always wanted to write about someone, almost every night. I signed in my Blogger, clicked on create new post, and..... struggled. Why is it so hard for me to spit out my thoughts about a person? Or maybe I was in dilemma, whether is it right for me to write about that person down.

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Okay... Still nothing! I have been typing and backspacing for 20 minutes. And, I still don't know how to write about that person. And, and, and, I am seriously mad at myself now!

Ughh...Forget about it!

Love,

Sunshine

Elder JJ's birthday

Okay. This is a late update actually. It was my eldest sister's birthday last week. We celebrated twice, first on the 7th of April and second on the 8th of April. The best thing of the celebrations was obviously food. Lol. Yummy-licious!! =D

Date: 7th of April 2010

Venue: Kissaten, Jaya One, Petaling.

Special thanks to Kynes, Rick and Danny for attending the celebration.

Danny, JJ and PATRICKKKKK!!!

Hearts!

The prince and the princess. Lol.

Weeee lurrvvveeee strawberries!!

♥

Cute!

♥

My 24-year-old sis.

Endless love♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Stop acting cute!!!

Okay. They are sweet. They always are.

Symmetric huh?

Strawberry heaven~~ Hallelujah!

They were actually mimicking some other couples' way of taking photo. LMAO! Okay. It somehow looks nice. Thanks to the photographer, me! Lol!

I know your spaghetti tasted good. Mine was twice as delicious as your okay... Lol!

Wuu... My grilled salmon.

Date: 8th April 2010

Venue: Manhattan Fish Market

It was my dad who brought us there. There were only three of us in the restaurant. How sad right?

Cream. So beautiful yet fattening! ==

Manhattan's garlic bread which taste far better than Pizza Hut's one.

Cutleries.

Sis and I. We don't look alike, do we? Hmm..

So happy with my garlic butter mussels! Taste good! Mm...

That's all for now!

Chaos~

Love,

Sunshine