500 Days of Summer, You and I

If it weren't because of you, I will like the movie very much.

But it IS because of you. That's why I don't like the movie. Instead, I am deeply in love with the movie.

p/s: Love it so much until I printed so many pictures of the movie to sketch. :P

Love,

Sunshine

When we were looking at the same rainbow at the same time at the same place

The perfect goodbye.

Love,

Sunshine

Letter II

Nando's

Kinokuniya Bookstore

New Zealand Natural Ice-cream

Isetan

Parkson

Rock Corner

KLCC park

and...

rainbow!!!

♥

Love,

Sunshine

♥

"Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful."

-A Walk To Remember-

Love,

Sunshine

Hello first week in TOA

Hello hello! College has just started for a week.

How am I feeling?

Nothing.

Yeah. I guess I am already used to the idea of having a lot of assignments and projects. As all these are already in my anticipation, I don't feel a thing about the assignments. This can be either good or bad. Good thing is that I don't hate assignments. Bad thing is that I don't like them either. So, this simply indicates that I have somehow lost the passion, a bit. Urgh.. I start to care less about the things happening around me. I wanna be solo all the time (bad idea). *sigh* I DON'T KNOW WHAT I AM DOING.

One thing I know for sure is that I woke up every morning, with a sweet smile on my face. I keep rolling on my bed because I feel so cosy in the blanket. And, I sleep with a smile on my face too. I haven't ever felt like this in my life. I have never loved sleeping until recently! :D This is crazy. Ahh.. I am crazy!!

It's almost 12 already. But I wanna watch A Walk To Remember tonight!!!!! :P I don't wanna live in regret when my assignments start to pile up to my nose. I shall watch as many movies as I want now, since I am still kinda free. Heehee..

Chaos.

Love,

Sunshine

7 things I dislike most, so far.

#1 Bookstores without seats

I need to read the book before I buy the book!! (You can still read when you stand wert??) No! I have to sit when I read. :]

#2 Waiting for someone for more than 15 minutes.

5th minute- I am bored.

10th minute- I am tired.

15th minute- I am impatient.

>15th minute- I am SO-GONNA-SCREW-YOU-UP! But, everyone knows I won't. =)

#3 Disturbance at night

I dislike it when neighbours who live behind my house watching TV at night.

I dislike it when my sister comes in and out of my room at night.

I dislike it when my mom calls me to do some stuff when I am in my room at night. I dislike sms-ing at night. (It's a different story when it's midnight. I love sms-ing when it's late night. =P)

#4 Crowd

Crowd is a word to define you-are-so-gonna-sweat-in-there. It limits movements. It limits time. Ughh.. I anti-crowd!!

#5 Plagiarist

Plagiarists shuckss!!

#6 Make-ups

I don't believe make-ups will make someone beautiful eternally. But, there are times that make-ups are kinda necessary. So, I will just say, I dislike putting make-ups, unless there's a need doing so.

#7 Seeing friends emo

Friends emo, saya emo. Bila saya emo, saya apa-apa pun tak boleh buat. Saya hanya mahu jadi orang gila dan menjerit-jerit!! *monkey*

*Haha.. Just for fun! :P

Love,

Sunshine

Letter I

You have put me through more drama. Yes, you have. But it was an awesome drama. A drama that I have been longing for. For the first time after the many years, the feeling is mutual. Thanks♥.

Love,

Sunshine

Sasa♥

It was Monday. It was my shopping day. When I was taking an escalator to one floor higher, I saw a kitten on the other side of the escalator. Lost kitten. I took a few seconds, hesitating whether I should bother about the kitten or not. Ahhhh... I have to! I immediately made a U-turn by taking the escalator to the floor where I was previously. I followed the kitten. I saw how people ignored the kitten. Awww!! Pity kitten. Then, this kitten entered a men's underwear shop. That was the time I made a call to a friend of mine who loves cats a lot, more than I do. While waiting for the friend's arrival, I waited outside the shop, observing how would the shopkeeper deal with the kitten. I saw his annoyed face. Ugly, I would say. If I have the guts, I would enter the shop, and smack that shopkeeper's face. I waited and waited. To my surprise, that shopkeeper put that kitten in a shopping bag, and threw it in an exit path. DAMN YOU!!! I looked at the shopkeeper with my eye balls almost popped out and my jaw dropped open. Without thinking much, I entered the exit path and accompanied the kitten until my friend arrived. And,.... yeah! So, this is our cat- Sasa! Weee.....

[She had her front legs both injured yesterday. No one knows why. Silly Sasa must have jumped and fell when no one was around. Sasa, oh, Sasa.. Get well soon yeah!! *love*]

Another drama of my life. ♥

Love,

Sunshine

Too Much

I probably had gone too far.

Being too nice, being too generous, being too helpful,...... I probably have done all those in a high dose with no self-realization. Now, all these lead me to a horror movie. I never liked horror movies. Disgusting, fearful, and most likely to lead me to insomnia are the definition to horror movies. And now, in am in the movie. To my most dislikement, I am the leading actress in this movie. I feel scared, worried and directionless. I haven't noticed all these while I have been doing things unintentionally which mislead people to something else. *sigh* I feel like escaping now, to somewhere else that no one knows me, and start something new. It's so hard to change when I am already in the situation where people have given me labels. It's like, you are given a label "cat". It's so hard to act like a dog then. UGHHH!! Freaking frustrated!!

Ip Man 2 [and critics on Iron Man 2]

[If you don't watch this, you are so uncool!]

If I were to use one word to comment about Ip Man 2, it would be stupid because it is way too good that you seriously gotta do a lot of thinking after watching it.

Needless to say, Ip Man's Wing Chun Kung Fu is awesome! It's so much more practical than all those technologies that you see from Transformers and Iron Man. You see real kung fus in Ip Man. But you see a lot more distractions like sexy ladies which didn't relate much to the movie in Transformers and Iron Man. Well, I still have to say I love Scarlett Johansson's character in Iron Man. But Megan Fox in Transformers? Er.... *scratch head* By the way, how come Ivan Vanko, that fella who hated Iron Man so much died so easily? Anyway, did you even get to see how he died?? You only see a building, with a big white spark. Next scene, Ivan Vanko is almost dead. I got my eyes popped out when I saw that. Compare this to Hung Si Fu's battle with Twister. Omg! You can see how hard is it for a hero to die. Well, Ivan Vanko is not a hero, but he should be good enough for a better battle with Iron Man, I thought. Hm...

Besides that, do you get the "OOHM" to choke Twister to death when you see him punching and hitting Hung Si Fu and Ip Man? Damn! At the moment Twister punched on their faces, I have the urge to take the parang dao and split him into two pieces like splitting a big watermelon into two. How come this kind of urge doesn't exist when I watched Iron Man? I don't even feel Iron Man looks exactly like a hero in this sequel. He was drunk. He was out of his sane. Hero? Hm.. I don't know. Not that a hero cannot act like this. But I somehow feel there's a need to maintain a hero values to the audiences. See, people paid watch these kind of hero movies with the expectations to see someone heroic. So, if you were to show something that is opposing what the audiences want, ..... hm? Probably not so cool right? On the other hand, both Ip Man and Hung Si Fu had showed heroic values. Not just heroic values! They managed to impress us with human values. Arghh!! This is bloody cool I tell you. There're so many moral values we can learned from a single movie like this. Isn't this what we call superhero? Okay. We know Ip Man cannot fly like Superman, cannot transform like Transformers, cannot innovate like Iron Man, cannot drive super yao yeng car like Batman,... but, trust me. Ip Man definitely has better stamina than them because he doesn't depend on technologies. Instead, he makes full use of his whole body to be a superhero. Yay! So I honour him a 7-starred batch (literally). :P

After doing all the talking, now it's fair to comment Ip Man 2 with one word.

ONE WORD:

COOL!

=P

Love,

Sunshine

A will, possible?

There's a thought in my mind, all the time.

I wish to write a will, not when I am old, but now. (Okay. I had been procrastinating that "now" until now and I still hadn't written any. It really takes a lot of time to think about what to write because it's the one and only chance for you to "talk" to the people you want to talk to when you are already dead.)

If I am granted the talent to write and time for isolation, I will write about a story about my life. And this book will be my will for my parents, if only I died earlier than them. They definitely deserve to know more about me and I deserve their understandings as I am their daughter.

What are the things I like, what are the things I dislike, what am I allergic to, who are my friends, who are my favourite teachers and lecturers, who were my exes, where have I been to, what was in my mind when they said something good or bad, ....... I want them to know so badly because I love them so much. I love them, that's why I am willing to wait. I am waiting for the day they finally understand how I feel and tell me, "Girl, I love you." (How nice if this could happen before any of us die.) Some of you must be saying, "CHOI! Why does Joe Jian keep talking about death?" My answer is, there's nothing to be fear about death. One withers, another grows. This is the cycle. And all the cycles make sense; the eco-cycle, the water cycle, and also the bicycle. =D

More update about Ip Man 2 and blah blah blah in the coming post. =)

Of ambivalence

Here's the lock.

But where's the key?

......

It's always like this. People would hint me something, but refuse to let me know the answer. And the reason is always "it's not something that you wanna hear".

I was angry.

Then I'd l start questioning, because I was curious. But the person would go on insisting that I shouldn't know.

I was confused.

As confused as I am, I'd keep saying things to make the person tell me what it was. But, the person said why do I have to push so hard?

I felt guilty.

Absolutely depressed.

And, blank.

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What?

I don't really like to share about my feelings in my blog. This blog is more like a site for me to keep my friends up to date about what I am doing. Mostly are the highlighted ones. But today, I wanna write something, something that's gonna do with my feelings right now.

I knew how much people had put expectation on me. Friends, lecturers, sisters, and.. parents? Frankly speaking, I don't know about parents. When I was calm, I always knew they didn't mean to doubt me. I continued "persuading" myself that their harshness is just their effort to make me a tough person. But, when they really started doubting me, I started to lose my sane and broke down most of the time. I thought I did well enough to make them feel proud of me. In everyone's eyes, I am good! Or maybe better than good. But what are my parents thinking? Haven't I had enough of their screams, shouts, pressures and doubts? I already showed proof. I scored well in all my examinations. And now I start to doubt, whether I am doing all this for myself or just to prove to you that I am good. I am not born to be good. I knew I've tried my best. I knew how hard I have tried. I tried, and tried, and tried. And don't I deserve something better than doubts?

So used to be the one at the top, and that's why it's even harder for me to fall. Stop thinking that superman and superwoman have no feeling. When we break down, the pain we are feeling is just the same as the pain everyone is feeling when they are down.

Love,

Sunshine

I questioned like an interviewer and he answered like the worst interviewee in this world.

Chalk drawing [sucks]

Well, well. I haven't been updating my dusty blog for quite some time already. Finally, I have something to talk about! Yay, yay!!

Last Sunday, I went to help my cousin out with the menu board(which is her cabinet as you can see) in her coffee house-Cafelicious which is located at Aman Suria. Hrm... I must have overestimated myself. I thought chalk drawing is an easy peasy job. Yes, I thoughttttt.... It really wasn't as easy as I thought. *bang head* Imagine I had my face so close to the surface I was drawing, and things I had to worry are as below:

1. Chalk dust is flying in the air! Yes, WATCH OUT! You're so gonna to inhale it!!

2. Wait! Didn't I just write a tiny E? How come it still looks big? *bangs head*

3. Caffe Latte, Mochalicious, Caramel Caffe Latte,......

Cousin: Hey, I forgot to tell you something. I changed the "caffe" to "cafe".

Me: *blank stare*

It's obvious, I didn't draw all of them. The first three columns are mine. The last two are my sister's. I just realized we somehow got our personalities switched. I used to be the one drawing cute stuff, and she used to be the one drawing something more realistic. But how come it's the vice versa now? Uhh.. I don't know.

By the way, college is gonna start soon. Soon soon soon.

*smacks head*

Love,

Sunshine

Short compilation

So far, these are the things that I have done throughout my holiday:

○Became the maid+chef of my house. My mom went to work for a month. And so, everything was all on me! "Awesome"!!

○Met many people that had the power to change my life so much.

○Participated in a shoe painting competition and managed to win the first prize. And... was lucky enough to appear in the newspaper.

○Relocated my blog!

○Had a one-day trip to Genting Highland with college mates- Yee Ping, Soon Lim and Wei Ting.

○Went to Petaling Street for several times to buy textiles and buttons.

○Celebrated Wen Kang's birthday.

○Went to Broga Hill.

○Deeply fell in love with Cheer. ♥

○Met up with high schoolmates and tuition buddy like Sin Dee, Linda, Jo Lin, Mei Shen, Audrey, Teressa, and Daniel.

○Watched Date Night, Kick-Ass, and Ice Kacang Puppy Love.

○Started my small business- Dim Dim's Handmade.

○Blacklisted someone. *YEAH*

○Downloaded more than 100 songs to listen! *still not enough*

○Played piano for many friends, important ones. =)

○Did none of my assignments. *jumping in the air*! ==