Another tough week

*sigh*

This week has been such a tiring one. Not that the assignment load is that heavy. But, I guess it's the domino effect of the previous week's late sleep and stress. Besides, I haven't been feeling good physically, mentally and psychologically for many days already. My body was weak. My mind was tired. And,... uhh.. Many things happened in between. I hate the feeling so much that I pray hard that this will not happen again in future. There's even a second that I thought of ending my life. This is freaking myself out. I don't wanna live in depression anymore. :((

Despite the good progress of my assignments and finals, I still feel emotional and sad. What the hell is wrong with me? *sigh* I feel so conflicted right now. It's like there's many many little things that are arguing in between themselves in my brain right now. The noise is so loud that I felt so deaf and annoyed. I wished I could just press (#) and silent them like how I silent my phone. Is that even possible? *sigh**sigh*

I need Miss Sunshine..Where's Miss Sunshine?? I wish I can find her back. I need her in my life. I don't wanna fake a smile anymore like what I have been doing these days. :'(

Tough but worthy moments

Uh oh.. Everything is abandoned because of my hectic Year 2 Semester 1. I am currently in the state of fatigue and it's terrifying me. I hate the life I am living now. Things seemed not right. My room is always messy. I have no mood to clear things up. I have no time to chat with my friends.

Uhh.. Well, well.. I guess this is life. If you always stay in our comfortable zone, we will never improve, we will never know what's our limit. In the past few days, I experienced exhaustion to the limit, fell asleep beside the laptop and woke up in the morning in fear, produced work of good quality in the shortest time and participated the Antalis Paper Fantasy tree sculpture exhibition despite The One Academy's heavy workload. I am glad that I managed to go through the tough moments. I shall not be fear of what's coming next. :S

Okay. Here are some photos.

Weee... My dearest love and I in The Secret Garden, One Utama.

My tanned love(lol) and my another love, my tree sculpture. ♥

Here's a group picture of me and my groupmates ,Kwee Shen and Jason.

Happy working with you guys. :D

Love,

Sunshine

Emo shit

Hello people. Here I am again. It had been a while since I last updated about myself. Now that I realized it wasn't because I have nothing to talk about. It's just... me, escaping from the feelings that I felt. Maybe, I had been deceiving myself a lot in the past few weeks.

I had no idea why. No idea why I feel so conflicted now. The anger, the anxiety and the insecurity crept into my mind and haunted me for so many hours. Breathless. That's what I felt. I needed to talk to someone so badly, yet, I didn't seek for anyone. I heard nothing. I saw nothing. I spoke nothing. The emotional turmoil had overwhelmed me way too much. Tears welled up in my eyes, but I kept telling myself to hold them back.

I hate this feeling. Everyone hates this feeling! Damn this effing world!! Why do human have to suffer in this way?!?