无助的朋友

你们听说过 "a friend in need is a friend indeed" 吗？

说着，在你最无助的时候伸出援手的是最真心的朋友。

但是如果说，这位真心的朋友很想伸出援手，可无助的朋友却不想接受，那该怎么办？

眼睁睁看着她在角落无助，却固执的不想接受任何人的帮忙，我忍不住对她的态度感到倦了，烦了。

坏了～

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One thing I learn about life is, you gotta have someone that listens to you. It sickens me a lot when I feel no one is willing to listen to me when I am talking something seriously. It disgusts me even more when I am pouring my deep-side soul, and yet, people around don't give a damn. Gratefully, I still have friends who are willing to lend me their ears, and let me spit out my problems. And gratefully (x2), to have friends who are willing to motivate, love and care for me. A simple "you can do it" means so much to people. It doesn't cost you a cent to say that. Why would people want to be so stingy of those words? Come to talk about having different interests with people around, why would you want to disagree with something that your friends like so much? Just be OK with it, people. You don't have to show that disgusted face which really turn people off so much? Brrrr

Define yourself

昨天看了一篇文章。说着，不用为自己的成功而感到愧疚。杀那间，脑袋里出现身边的很多人，还有自己。常常因为在某些地方，发挥的比人好，而感到paise。其实真的很不酷～ 为何要感到愧疚？成功是努力而来的。辛辛苦苦努力出来的成果，成功是应该的。如果没有成功，也ok。反正人活着，只要努力，一定会有出头天。

除此之外，失败的人也不应该讨厌成功的人。妈的，成功人又没有得罪你。就因为人家考得比你好，有钱过你，长得比你漂亮，就得变成你讨厌的对象。西北幼稚。 看不下去人家成功，你就得多加把力咯。

而很努力很努力又一直失败的人，不要看到比你厉害的人而感到害怕。真正的努力不是避开厉害的人来忘记自己的弱点，而是更加接近厉害的人，从他们身上学习。尤其是在读书的时候，跟老师讨教是应该的。（反正都给了学费。就够够力的用尽它吧～）即使被老师／朋友嘲笑，it's okay。笑就笑。有学到东西就好了。好比自己躲在房里，懊恼下一步该怎么走。

在这个社会中，若要过得快乐，就要学会了解自己。突破自己的弱点，加强自己的优点，要往前爬，时不时也要往后看，看看自己进步了多少。

Define yourself.

p/s: 近期一直在想办法改造型。会是一个很漫长的evolution。

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I am not a good lover. I never admitted that I am one. The fact is that, I wasn't born to be one.

I was so much a heartbreaker even since I had an inexplicable first love, like what most people had. I know it's a bad idea to put the blame on that one relationship. But the start is always the one that took the most emotions and left the deepest cut.

Since then, I had always been lost in love. Of course I am not too dumb to realize that at most time, I am the one who broke the other's heart. Somehow, I don't find myself wrong to be so honest to them because I was honest to myself. I can't live in a life that doesn't belong to me.

Speaking about freedom, I'd always lived under my parents' supervision. Food I eat, clothes I wear, the language I speak, and even, my hobby, has to be approved by them. It weren't that bad you see. Everything was guaranteed. I never got to know bad friends as I barely even mixed with people out of my school/tuition/college. Cons, I don't really know the right way to communicate. Worst is, I've no guts to face the world on my own due to over-dependence on family.

Back to the topic, as I lived under such conditions, I hunger more for freedom. At least, the freedom of thoughts. I don't mind to be the bad one in the relationship. But I really mind if I can't think the way I want it to be. How many more decades I can live in this world, living the way I want it to be? There were too many things that I've missed out during the past two decades. Duh, of course I'm not regretting about not making a change earlier. All I want is to slowly gain my freedom from now on. I have this bad+immoral 'habit' where I care less about how others feel. It's a habit that I want to get rid off. But I don't get to be selfish much when I was at home. I want to feel myself when I am out there even though I know I won't be likable when I do that. But when I was out of home, those selfishnesses drained me up. I couldn't even find a hole to dig into.

There's no conclusion for this. Just some rantings that needed to be spitted out.

Because it has all to do with money

When I was young, I always say happiness first. Money second. Easy to say, but hard to keep the promise.

As we grow up, we see the value of things. Every luxury has everything to do with money.

You buy stuff with money.

You buy time with money.

You buy people's heart with money.

The world is so tough. When you own something better, or possess a higher class, people look at you in a different way. Totally feel it when I just bought my Mac recently. It's like when you buy a Mac, you are of a higher status in the society. That's stereotype. This is the reason why I can't blame people for being so in love with money because with money, you earn adoration or maybe self-esteem. Even though I don't really like the idea of judging someone by something he/she owns, but ironically, that's the fact.

Come to think of it. We neither need an iPad or and iPhone. Many bought it just to gain approval from the society(or just to show off?). To me, it's silly to read from an iPad. People who love reading will understand why. And iPhone, despite the fact that it has the highest radiation level among all the smart phones, people just don't care. Having a status in the society is more important than their health(I think).

Sickening world we are living in. People no more talk with heart. Instead, they talk with money. Gahh~~ That's so lousy.

如果人生如戏

因为暑假的关系，连续看了三部连续剧。

看这些连续剧时都会很迷这些如此梦幻的故事。男主角一定很帅，不然就很厉害，不然就很有钱。女的，或许可爱，或许漂亮，但是好像都不会太聪明。要有点笨笨的，才可爱一些。

啊~连续剧把人生说的太简单了。

人生，怎么就只有那几位好友。

又怎么只有爸爸妈妈的烦恼。（现实中，其实有很多三姑六婆，左邻右舍，亲朋好友，哩哩啦啦）

又怎么会有“真相大白”。

又怎么只有那些用十只手指可以数得完的烦恼~

真正的人生有太多太多的插曲了。

真相太难找得出了。找到的话就真的是奇迹。（看看政治就懂了）

朋友太多。每个的感受都得顾虑。

对电脑的时间多过对任何东西。所以，所有的戏剧都只能在msn或facebook里发生。

说了这么多，其实，我是羡慕连续剧的剧情罢了。

多么简单。

唉~ 重点还是，真相一定会大白的！

为什么我们的现实生活不能简单一些呢。。

隐形的翅膀

一天一天的长大，就会越来越想念中学的时光。

以前，每天都过得很充实。泰拳道和赛跑，曾经是我生命的一部分。

到了大学，紧迫的步伐让我渐渐的失去了自由。有功课时就拼命做。有时间就睡觉，偷懒，休息。真的真的不会想去运动。

好了。读大学都已2年多了。

终于，

终于，

终于，

我受不了了！

每天就只动了几下脚。手也只不过按了数万次的mouse。难道做设计师就只能按mouse过日子吗？（tmd)

今天，终于下定决心，一定一定一定一定要去运动！

我要跑步去！！！！

对！这样就对了！奔跑时不经意的漏出微笑。虽然双脚踩着地，但是感觉就像飞一样。好久没有这么开心了。这种快感是无可代替的~

活在我体内的懒虫，你们通通都等着死掉吧！

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

完毕~